"Father i pray to you now, i come to you broken, caught up within myself,""devil i speak to you now, you have no right in my life, for i am a child of God & you are nothing but a meer spec. My Father is so much bigger then you, BEGONE out of my life, for you will no longer have control, devil be gone""father i worship you for the life that you have given me, your Spirit that is with me always & your grace, Father come into my life, take over my ship wrecked life boat, consume me, for i am yours, a child of God. I long to live up to your goals for me, i want to spread your Word, The kingdom of God shall rein down. fill me Father, for i am almost empty of you, help me father, i am desperate for you.
In Jesus Mighty Name I Pray, Amen
Sunday, December 2, 2007
For My Mom
In english we were asked to Affirm Somones Life as a Journal Entry Assignment, I Chose to do my mom:
Dear Mom:
Through the entire struggle, through everything you were always there. Even though I know you think I don’t care, I really do. Things have happened and certain events may have lead to our separation, but it wasn’t separation of the heart. We will always be joined together as a family, as friends. We both know that you didn’t deserve what happened to you but the events were beyond both of our control, don’t beat yourself up. You deserve so much better and in the events afterward I think you got it. For the first time I actually think you were treated the way you should be and although no one is prefect, life really straightened out.
As for my childhood, it was as good as it could be. You did your best and that’s all anyone could ask. There was no one to help you and lots of eyes looking for every moment to criticize, basically under a microscope. Who I am today is because of your work as a single parent, pretty much. You can take that however you want, but I take it in a good way for I think I have turned out pretty decent. I truly respect you for what you went through in raising me, cuz lets face it , I was a hell child bent on sugar; great times lol. I know you beat yourself up about the events that took place but just remember one thing; love comes in many forms, sometimes miniscule but it is always there. Even when all hope seems lost or love seems gone astray or life seems like an endless spiral of downfalls just remember; always.
Looking back I find a distinct pattern of endless love tied to people that didn’t appreciate. But there was so much love and so much passion. Burning passion to better the lives of your kids and create a home. But you never lost focus, always thinking about us. Some may view this as a downfall and in a way it is. But all moms are like that, they put their children first no matter what; its like a mothers code of sorts.
You carried out everything you did with this passion, in your work, in your prayers, in us. Your driving strength was scripture based at heart, even though I don’t quite think you realized it at the time. I swear you were in the loop with Santa, and then I found out the real truth. Back to point, your passion was like a burden that you carried a good burden though. One that drove you forward and pushed you beyond your limits in all areas; physical and emotional even spiritual.
I guess what I am trying to say mom is that you were amazing; the perfect mom. And I know that by saying that your going to be like “um no” but in all reality you were. You loved us with your everything and put your life into raising us up to be who we are today. So here is to you mom and all you have done, nothing I can do will ever be enough to repay you. But that’s the beauty of it isn’t it, you don’t even want to be repaid. My mom in a nutshell; love always
Dear Mom:
Through the entire struggle, through everything you were always there. Even though I know you think I don’t care, I really do. Things have happened and certain events may have lead to our separation, but it wasn’t separation of the heart. We will always be joined together as a family, as friends. We both know that you didn’t deserve what happened to you but the events were beyond both of our control, don’t beat yourself up. You deserve so much better and in the events afterward I think you got it. For the first time I actually think you were treated the way you should be and although no one is prefect, life really straightened out.
As for my childhood, it was as good as it could be. You did your best and that’s all anyone could ask. There was no one to help you and lots of eyes looking for every moment to criticize, basically under a microscope. Who I am today is because of your work as a single parent, pretty much. You can take that however you want, but I take it in a good way for I think I have turned out pretty decent. I truly respect you for what you went through in raising me, cuz lets face it , I was a hell child bent on sugar; great times lol. I know you beat yourself up about the events that took place but just remember one thing; love comes in many forms, sometimes miniscule but it is always there. Even when all hope seems lost or love seems gone astray or life seems like an endless spiral of downfalls just remember; always.
Looking back I find a distinct pattern of endless love tied to people that didn’t appreciate. But there was so much love and so much passion. Burning passion to better the lives of your kids and create a home. But you never lost focus, always thinking about us. Some may view this as a downfall and in a way it is. But all moms are like that, they put their children first no matter what; its like a mothers code of sorts.
You carried out everything you did with this passion, in your work, in your prayers, in us. Your driving strength was scripture based at heart, even though I don’t quite think you realized it at the time. I swear you were in the loop with Santa, and then I found out the real truth. Back to point, your passion was like a burden that you carried a good burden though. One that drove you forward and pushed you beyond your limits in all areas; physical and emotional even spiritual.
I guess what I am trying to say mom is that you were amazing; the perfect mom. And I know that by saying that your going to be like “um no” but in all reality you were. You loved us with your everything and put your life into raising us up to be who we are today. So here is to you mom and all you have done, nothing I can do will ever be enough to repay you. But that’s the beauty of it isn’t it, you don’t even want to be repaid. My mom in a nutshell; love always
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